My joy remains in Christ

In high school I broke up with guys when I got bored. 

That sounds horrible, but it's extremely honest. The one time I tried to make 
things genuinely work ended up worse than when I didn't try, so I broke up with 
my current beau whenever I developed a new crush. 

I've never dated a guy and had God be the center of our relationship. Senior 
year I dated a guy from my bible study. But we weren't mature enough for the 
seriousness dating requires. (And honestly I'm not sure anyone in high school 
is, sorry to all my loves out there still in 9-12)

This relationship was a struggle. Colin came to know Christ as we were already 
dating. It was hard maintaining a God-centered relationship when he was just 
learning what to do for himself as a new believer. I praise God for all he did 
when we were dating, and just for the fact that Colin now has a relationship 
with the savior. But we both need space to re-focus. 

"It's all good." I said
"But, you know, it's not." He said. 
"But it will be."

Yes, there's a lot of healing left to be done. But God has given me a peace 
through this whole situation. He was already worked amazing things just in this 
short week. 

I'm going back to Sandblast in 2014! I'm leading a small group with my best 
friend on this earth and I get to take Student Impact back to Indiana and ROCK 
THAT CAMPUS for the name of Jesus. This was made possible through a phone call I 
made to Kaylea in tears, at the end of which I hung up in pure joy. 

Everyday I am reminded of the way Jesus views me: that I am His and I am loved. 
If Jesus died for me in the midst of my sinful nature, then I am worthy of love. 

And I will find it. I am forever in pursuit of Him. And I know by pursuing the 
Master Lover, I will find my husband in Him as well. And my heart is going to hold out for a man who loves Jesus and can lead us both to Him each day.